I am learning to walk through this beautiful, crazy, scary journey called life solo.
I am learning to show up for myself, trust myself, and
be joyful, grateful, adventurous, and brave.
It’s been over 6 months since I left Canada, left safety, the known and familiar. Recently, I have started to venture on my own during the day, exploring new towns, new cultures and interacting with strangers. I have been putting trust in my ability to guide myself and trust my instincts. At first it was hard. I felt lonely, lost and almost dreading the start of a new day. Sitting with these feelings made it evident that this was necessary for me to push myself beyond some sort of comfort zone, explore these feelings and challenge myself.
Over the last few weeks, I have been learning to enjoy my time alone, the adventure and getting to know me and fall in love with me, quirks, insecurities, and all!
There comes an inner peace exploring the unknown and unfamiliar alone. It seems silly, but it is a reason to celebrate within, it feels like a wee victory daily. I am okay, I am enough, I am here! For me!
In the past, when I found myself alone for long periods of time, I always felt like I wasn’t enough, something was wrong with me. This quote has resonated with me for some time,
“Happiness (a moment) is only real when shared” -Into the Wild.
This is so true, happiness and moments are amazing when shared with another or others. I am realizing, it is also true, when shared alone, it too is amazing!
There are days that come easier than others, days that are hard and I have to push myself and then there are days I don’t want to do anything! I approach each day as it presents itself, with compassion, patience and encouragement for myself.
Regardless of the day, my journey continues, journey to freedom, inner peace, and adventure, with me, for me!
*picture captured in Erzurum, Türkiye